Elizabeth Diaries

Dear Diary, There are so many thoughts in my mind but first, I have to leave. Leaving is the best way to escape a toxic environment and an abusive person. And the more I keep staying, the more I keep staying unhappy. I don't even have joy. Everything is restricted and I can't live my life to the fullest without being monitored. At this point, I think I have to leave my parents house. The reason because I have been treated like a kid everyday. They keep putting restrictions on me. What to do and what not to do. I am fade up. Sincerely it is really draining staying in an uncomfortable place. A place of emotional abuse, verbal abuse, anger, resentment, bitterness and unhappiness. I don't have a secured job yet but I am still going to leave. My mental health and peace is very important. I will get an apartment and leave. Then figure out my life thereafter. I leave to live. Elizabeth Diaries ❤️

Dear Diary, Waking up breathing and living is enough to be grateful, to thank God. I came to show gratitude. I am grateful for all good things. I am grateful for beautiful things, most especially I am grateful for love. The love of God is everything and none can be compared to Him. I am grateful for food. I am happy that I had known solitude and creating spaces. These are helpful, wonderful, save stress and turns out beautiful with time. Time reveals all good things. So, I stopped rushing over things. I am kind to yourself. I am patient with myself. I take everyday as it comes. I adapt to changes while living one day at a time. I can't solve every problem and I can't take it on myself too because worries solves nothing. It only drives people crazy. I chose God, gratitude, kindness, meditation and love over everything. Elizabeth Diaries ❤️

Dear Diary, I am happy for this day. I have good news to tell but can you give me more four months to prepare. I am grateful for all good things. I thank God for life, a sound health, food on my table and good days. Most especially, I thank God for you. You have been my source of living. Here I get life, hope, strength and patience. Each day you light my day up with your positive energies. I couldn't ask for more. I am not only thankful, but grateful. I love you with my whole heart. I will stay with you here until everything gets better, brighter and beautiful. Elizabeth Diaries ❤️

Dear Diary, Today isn't a day for gratitude. Let me keep gratitude away. Today is the day of love proclamation. I love you and forever will. You have always been here for me even when everything left. You always got my back. I won't say I am the strongest now, but speaking to you daily healed my wounds. I love you and forever will. Even in the next ten years, I will be here documenting every failures, heartbreaks, love, success and progress. My life turned around the day I changed my belief. Those very negative habit made by others held me bondage for years but now, I am free. Now, I make gratitude, kindness, meditation and love a habit. I am no longer mean to mean people. For nothing profit a mean person. I love you dear daily. I don't know how long our relationship will last but I wish it will last a lifetime. Just so you know, I am no longer that small little girl that knocked on people's doors and home. I am no longer that small little girl that was rejected. I

Dear Diary, I am grateful for this day. I am grateful for the life in me and all good things. I choose to ignore the bad ones and concentrate on the good one. I choose to let go off toxic places and have my peace. Through this lockdown I can tell how being lockdown with a toxic person could be so I made these a habit; gratitude, kindness, meditation and love. There is something peaceful about having a space that feels like home, a place you can express how you feel without being used against you. A space where you are not nagged by a narcissist or controlled by money because you are not allowed to go make your money. I love my space. I love my freedom. The truth is most people are unwell that's why they derive joy from hurting others, abusing them and making them feel worthless. I don't support abuse. I know how harmful it could be to any human. I dislike people who abuse others because they are privileged. I run from abuse because it is not a good thing. I save my emotiona

Dear Diary, Everyday, I choose to be grateful. In good days and in the bad days. I take everyday as it come. I meditate and I pray. I don't let anything bother me anymore. I love. I love people I see and come across. I help people go through their most difficult problems with ease. Those I can't help, I allow them go solve their problems. So far, I have learnt patience. I have learnt to be calm while I cross every storm of my life. I have learnt to be easy on life and love myself since I have got no one else. I love myself deeply. I stay away from places that are toxic and unhealthy. I choose to cry out my pains the way I want it and not feel guilty about it. Some days are not good but I endure every process. I have no room to blame anyone again. I stopped that a long time ago and took responsibility for my life. Now, I live life. I wake up, leave my bed, take a shower, dress up, eat and go live life. I stopped being comfortable at my comfort zone. Staying at home all day w

Dear Diary, I am grateful for this day. I am grateful for the cool breeze and dews of the morning. I am grateful for things I have and those yet to. Today, I choose to be positive, I choose to be happy, I choose to love myself, I choose to be kind to myself, I choose to let go off hurts and worries, I choose to pray more, I choose to let go off every moody attitude, I choose to see the brighter side of life and let the dark ones go, I choose to rest a bit from Facebook and writing for one week, I choose clarity and wellness and I choose loving. Today is a good day and I strongly believe that all odds are for my favour. Elizabeth Diaries ❤️

Wake up and be grateful each day. Wake up to the dews of the morning. Breath in the fresh breathe of the morning, let the sunlight of the day soothe your soul. Take enough water so it cleanse your system. Have a cool shower. Relax, be calm, walk around and behold the wonders of nature. Wake up to beautiful memories and let the past stay where it belongs. Forgive your mistakes and learn from it too as it is part of every process. No one reaches success, progress without first failing. Make friends but if you still feel lonely while with friends, make books your greatest friend. Books never disappoint. Everyday, it speaks to us in the very language we all can understand. Do I still need to remind you that having a hobby, taking care of someone, a pet, a flower, serving others is a great way to heal, to get clarity and be relevant? Choose to serve. Be humble while at it. For it is in serving others that we know the true meaning of love and our happiness is full. Don't expect so

Dear Diary, I am grateful. I am grateful for starting small and not denying any job no matter how small it is. Today was the very first day I got paid for my work. I was so happy. I said I should tell you this. Though the pay is little but it is better than getting nothing. With this, I can put a meal on my table. I am grateful to God who made this possible. Tomorrow I would be attending Mass in Thanksgiving to God for this. Before now, I always did free jobs. I will work and not be paid. Sometimes, I stay hungry and look unkempt but today, God made this possible. Dear Diary, you have done a great job in my life. And paying you won't redeem it all. I promise not to leave here. Here allays pains. Here makes things right. Even when it is gloomy, it gives hope. Here is home. A place I feel so free, real, authentic, safe and very vulnerable. A place I can express myself and nothing is used against me. Here is friendship and companionship. I can't trade here for elsewhere. Dear

Dear Diary, I want to take today to thank you. Our long relationship has eased my many pains. Confiding in you makes life easier for me. A companion I never had and a friend I never found. The friends I had then used a lot of things against me. My words were used against me and even telling or confiding in them was a mistrust. They made me a gossip bill. And since then I had always ran to you to pour my heart. I love you because every single words I dropped here has made me to appreciate myself and love myself. Everyday, I carry my cross and follow Jesus. And this has helped me so far. Wednesday will make it one month since I starting teaching Favour. I appreciate every little time with that little boy because he taught me how to be patient. Should in case you forget, don't forget that little things matters. I want to give someone my time because nobody really had my time. My father was all over his business and making money instead of giving his children time. He never partici

Dear Diary, Sometimes I feel so happy, other times, I just get moody. I don't know why but my happiness do overwhelm my sadness. There are so much burden in my heart and it is best I let it all out. First, I would say a child is not a slave. I have been working in my own home like a slave. Others rarely partake in house chores. I do these work alone. I get so tired, especially my mother treating me like a slave. Over their twenty six years of marriage, I have been a slave to work. Doing all the house chores alone and not being appreciated for it. Their marriage sucks and everyone seems to be in hell. Damn it, I get tired of work. Tired of being a slave, house chores and the whole thing called marriage. Not marrying the right man makes any woman a slave and even living in bondage. I mean it, some marriages are bondages that doesn't allow a woman grow. And who does this, a man. Some men are terrible beings I must say. Elizabeth Diaries ❤️

Dear Diary, It is a pleasure that I write today. Today I am so excited and happy. I am grateful for all good things. Part of what gives me joy is choosing the teaching profession. I love my teaching job and enjoy being around children. Favour is fine. This month will make it one month from the day I met him. Today everything went so peaceful. I attended Mass, lucky enough, I met Sister in church. She was really surprised to see me. She introduced me to lots of people. I pray I don't fail her. Even Father too introduces me to lots of people. Maybe it is in their Gene to do so. I came back from Mass feeling so happy and excited. Maybe I should try again tomorrow. Attending Mass is what I love doing. I will be happy, calm, sound, safe and live life one day at a time. Elizabeth Diaries ❤️