Elizabeth Diaries

In this article, I won't say leave your abusive home, run away from your parents or start living in isolation. No! I can't do that. This advice you see or read on the internet or watch people say is so hard to do. Damn so hard! Especially when you are a minor, dependant, no job, no savings, very broke and even hopeless. I have had my own share of the experience so I can tell how difficult that is. And again, no matter how bad your family is, don't go telling everyone how terrible your family is. Don't be vulnerable with everyone. Don't point fingers, other fingers would be pointing back at you. So be matured, act matured, heal in a matured way.  I know how pained, hurt, broken you are, but heal your pains the right way so you won't have things bouncing back or backfiring at you. I am saying this from experience and I wish you a healthy healing. One thing I keep saying to anyone who has been abused is that, it's not your fault to be born into dysfunctionality...

 I say this again and again. Be intentional about anything you want in life. Be intentional about your journey, your dreams, your wants and your healing. Along my healing journey, I discovered the power of intentions. Say what you want and stick to it. Do what you want to do and stick to it. Be consistent at it. Choose what makes you happy and that which fulfills you. Don't chose anything for yourself because a friend said so, your parents said so or everyone said so. Do things with intention. Have a purpose and the reason you do the things you do. Focus! Always focus. There are a whole lot of distractions out there that can make you stumble if you are not focused. Be intentional about your healing. Personally, I had to say no to dating and marriage until I healed completely. I don't want to repeat the mistakes I saw my mother or any other woman did. I want peace and calmness. This is why I take my education seriously and dedicate years to building up myself. I can't imagin...

No grudges! It's just personal. I have been a fan of late marriages. I deeply admire those who marry in their 30s and 40s than those who marry in their 20s. I feel time and age makes human grow with experience. So who I was 20 years ago is not the same person I am today. Humans grow, humans change, needs and wants change too with time. It doesn't usually sit well with me seeing a girl of 20 married without education and stays at home complaining everyday of an abusive husband. I don't smile to all these things. I feel at 30s and 40s a woman may have discovered herself, have a job, have a business, have money and can make decisions for herself. Marrying late is good and can also be a bad decision. It all depends on the individual. This is why I like late marriage. 1. You have enough time to get education As a single lady, you have every time to yourself. You can use that time to get the education you want. Because when husband comes and children start knocking, you barely ha...

I feel the world would be much better if humans were not materialistic. The world would be much better if people didn't join harmful groups, cult or whatever humans pledge to to harm their fellow humans and damage humanity. Materialism has led to many evils. Humans because of money or certain privileges do evil to each other. They get education, then they need a job. They get a job, then they need money. They get money, then they need a car. They get a car, then they need a house. They get a house, then they need something else. Human needs and wants are endless and insatiable. Humans place their happiness and peace on the outside world; on money, on house, on cars, on degrees, on relationship status, on children, and they neglect themselves, their home and their inner peace. Life is safer without materialism. Elizabeth Diaries ❤️

Today I am grateful for 1. Good health 2. Peace 3. Happiness 4. Sound mind Elizabeth Diaries ❤️

Yesterday I felt so good cleaning my dogs' apartment. Dogs are lovely pet to live with. So I enjoy nature so much. I enjoy the cool breeze of the morning. I feel it on my body, face and anywhere exposed to it. Morning air and the sun feel so refreshing. Waking up in the morning and having a slow and conscious walk without rushing out for anything helps me release toxic energies. It gives me a good day. Nature is life and as humans we have really ignored it.  Staying outside and just observing everything is healing. Relaxing to nature, observing rest and slow living without rushing to go to school, get a career, be a good employee is so peaceful. It's satisfying living in the present. It's satisfying staying and feeling so much joy, happiness with nature. It's satisfying observing your environment and staying still with love. Elizabeth Diaries ❤️

 Right now, I am just living. Living life as a teacher. Writing lesson notes and making lesson plan. It is so hectic. But I love it. I appreciate the privilege of standing before young people everyday and speaking to them. Like I really want to plan my life. I want to save money, buy a new laptop and get a domain. So this is what I will be doing. I will start searching for a teaching job close to home so I don't pay so much on transportation. I will have to cook more at home to reduce the stress of eating outside. Not so easy but I will try. I love writing. Blogging is my hobby, so even when I teach, I still blog. I blog everyday and consistently. Just putting down my experiences, thoughts, emotions and feelings. Blogging is what I do for fun. Blogging is what I don't sell or dream of selling. Teaching is what pays my bill, blogging is what I do for fun. What fulfills me and gives happiness. I mastered the act of living life at the moment through blogging. Elizabeth Diaries ❤️

So much noise in your life leads to disorderliness. So much noise in your environment create fear. So much noise in your life create unhappiness. Eliminate the noise. It is happy, calm and peaceful when noise doesn't exist. It becomes a slow living, noiseless life and fun-filled works. Elizabeth Diaries ❤️

 Contentment gives joy. Contentment brings happiness. Contentment fulfills. Contentment makes you avoid unnecessary things. Contentment less noise. I love a simple life. I dislike noise so much. I usually do my things unheard and unnoticed. To me, it is really the best life ever because I don't stress my life pleasing people. People pleasing is one of the terrible act that frustrate people's lives. Wanting to be liked, wanting to be loved and surrounded by the crowd. Wanting to be like another, competing with friends, mates and colleagues. Doing things bigger than you to please another. This act really make humans bitter and frustrated when their expectations are not fulfilled. So I choose my life. I please myself first before anyone else. I love myself first before anyone else. And I strictly avoid noise. Elizabeth Diaries ❤️

 Your skin glows differently when you start loving yourself consistently. Day after day, month after month and year after year. Your body needs consistent unconditional love to relax and heal properly. I wish to one day have a farm. I have always fantasized having a farm and having to eat organic food gotten from the farm. I feel it is also self-love and care.  Elizabeth Diaries ❤️

 Today being the 2nd day of May I am grateful for life and that of my readers. I keep trusting God to change my story. I want God heal all my emotional turmoil. I want God heal me physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually. I want God to change my story to a good one just as He did to Oprah Winfrey and others who went through abusive childhood and traumatic experiences. My wounds are so deep. Only God can fix everything. Elizabeth Diaries ❤️

 Peace, like charity, begins at home. Elizabeth Diaries ❤️

 You prepare for things. You don't rush things. So, you have to settle your spirit and do things on time. Elizabeth Diaries ❤️

 I want to be single. I am not scared or anything. I just want to be single and be happy with life. I love marriage and weddings, especially Nigerian weddings, but I just want to be single. The kind of life I desire, being single will solve all the problems. Growing up I saw my mother struggle so much in her marriage and even now as a young adult. Growing up in an extremely religious environment I have seen terrible marriages. Marriages women died in because they were hopeless or no one could help them. I have seen women terribly sick in their marriages while the men stay in control with toxic powers dominating everyone. I have seen women whose family couldn't help them out of a toxic marriage due to poverty or lovelessness in the home. So I wouldn't love that kind of stress for myself or having to cage my life for someone else. I wouldn't want to blame someone else for my life or what I failed to do for myself. I am tired of depending on someone else financially, emotional...

Healing to the world. Healing to everyone going through pains. Healing to the broken hearted. Healing to the hopeless. Healing to the sick. Healing to the afflicted. Healing to those healing their inner demons. Healing to everyone. Healing 🕯️ Elizabeth Diaries ❤️

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 I cry to release pains. I don't get strong every time. I let myself drop down the tears. You know, taking everything inside and not releasing it out does a lot of harm to the body. You must find a way to give things out, through crying, writing, singing, drawing, painting, acting, talking or just by expressing yourself and who you are. You need a space to heal and be vulnerable. So, you have to cry. Feel the emotions and go through the pains. Elizabeth Diaries ❤️

 My happy place, my Diary. Elizabeth Diaries ❤️

 I don't deny the fact that sometimes healing pains hurt so well. Sometimes you are numb, you yell, you are rude, you are angry, unhappy and bitter. Pains hurt so well and it is hard to forgive, especially when there is no apologies. Healing childhood abuse and traumas hurt, being financially abused hurt. But, you still have to heal to be free. Pains hurt. Elizabeth Diaries ❤️

 The question I ask people who feel unhappy with life. What do you do for fun? What makes you happy? What excites you? What do you do during your free time? What are your hobbies? Elizabeth Diaries ❤️